The Best Advice I Have Ever Received

I used to think asking for help was weak…pathetic…and admitting that I wasn’t an adequate human-being.

This didn’t get me very far, nor was it conducive to a healthy lifestyle, and finally my world came crashing down around me, leading to four years of hospitalizations, conflicts with my loved ones and a nearly destroyed body.

When someone told me the strongest thing I could possibly do WAS ask for assistance with my struggles, I partially laughed because it seemed so ridiculous, but at the same time felt immense relief because all I wanted at that moment was a hug and someone to aid in lifting me back up to the happy life I once knew.

For months people have been encouraging me to seek help; go to professionals who could dig me out of the hole I, and ED, have put me in, but I truly thought I could do it all on my own.

Lately, as much as I have been challenging myself and doing better, it just isn’t enough.

This morning I went to my specialist and am beginning a program immediately.

I want to continue blogging through this journey because the connections I have made with people in the virtual universe are very special to me and I think this can be a great forum for support.

I just had to be honest today and let you know that even though I fooled myself and truly believed I was strong enough to defeat my demons; it was just another mask ED put up to keep me sick.

Don’t wait as long as I did.

Get your life back today, and ask for help when you need it.  I wish I would have followed that fabulous advice.

But since I didn’t, happy monday, friends…what better time than now, for a fresh start?

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18 thoughts on “The Best Advice I Have Ever Received

  1. YES YES YES YES I know it is so hard, when I admitted myself into treatment last year I thought I was being weak, pathetic, everything I was not proud of. In reality, I was being stronger than my ed and fighting for myself for once. I am so proud of you!

  2. GOOD FOR YOU CJ! I know how scary entering a program can be. Ironically I also decided earlier today to start seeing a therapist again and to do a program after a couple weeks if that isn’t enough, Best of luck to you! God bless.

  3. Oh CJ, I am SOOOO proud of you right now!! This took so much courage, and so much strength! And I fully believe if you trust your treatment team you will make great strides! You are SO right, the most brave thing you could have done is ask for outside help. And there is absolutely NO shame in that!! You will do this, your head is in it and I believe in you!

  4. I know exactly how you feel. EXACTLY how you feel. And yes, asking for help is one of the hardest things I ever did. I still struggle with the guilt…but deep inside I know that this is a good thing for me. If I want to get well, then I need help. If I didn’t need help, I would have been able to recover by myself, and that wasn’t happening. That was a hard truth to face but it is the truth. I’m seeing a nutritionist tomorrow, and although I’m scared, this is a step on the path to a better life- a life of FREEDOM. That’s what we should cling to every day.

    Don’t worry. Be strong. We’re all here for you. You’re going to come out of this stronger, happier and freer than you’ve ever been before. I know it. ❤

    Jess

  5. You are SO right! Last spring, I realized that I needed more help than just counseling, and so I told my loved ones what I needed and we were able to find a program that worked for me. I’m well on the road to recovery – still have work to do, but like you, I hit that point where I was sick and tired of being sick and tired. I’m so proud of you for making this decision, and I wish you all the best. You’re in my prayers!!

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