Updates and Music Therapy

Obviously my posting schedule has been a little irregular this week.

As I told you Tuesday Ryan and I were in Philadelphia most of that night and came home Wednesday for me to return to work the following day.

I am again heading to the city of brotherly love in just a few hours. Lots of driving, and lots to do, but to be honest, I am enjoying being busy because the main reason my posts have been less frequent is because I am incredibly tense and pre-occupied.

Tense, pre-occupied and mentally exhausted…

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I have apologized several times over the last few weeks, for my cryptic entries and lack of information, but today I feel it is necessary for me to disclose one of my stressors because in the next few months there will be a lot of familial change, and my family is a very important aspect of my life.

You see, my sister is pregnant.

This is probably not the most appropriate venue to discuss this, considering it isn’t my body that is producing a child, but since Linds, Ryan and I all live under one roof, an infant is definitely going to change ALL our lives in multiple ways.

Because she is only twenty, with no career or serious boyfriend, I worry about how much responsibility that places on her shoulders and how incredibly difficult it will be financially.

I worry how much I have already put Ryan through these last few years, and how unfair it is for him to add a baby to the mix when we don’t even want children of our own.

Even though it isn’t OUR baby, per se, we will still hear the crying, want to help, and do not want to see a person we love struggle.

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We have been spending many weekends away lately, enjoying time mostly in Philadelphia, and it has really made me think.

As much as I once dreaded my mom selling her house (Ry and I rent out our townhouse and take care of my childhood home since my mom moved to New Jersey) a big part of me is thinking it just might be time for my husband and I to establish a life by ourselves, out of the town we both grew up in and never really left.

We have been fortunate enough to travel and see a lot of amazing places in the world, but a fresh start could be just what we need.

It would certainly push me to have some ME-sponsibility (you know, ME taking more responsibility for ME…sorry I saw that somewhere the other day and really liked it ;-)) And up to this point, I have to admit I really do look to others for approval, confirmation, guidance, and don’t often make the right decisions for ME…and ultimately me and Ryan.

The whole point to this post is to sort of apologize; let you know my absence is mostly because my head is in so many places right now that I have trouble focusing on writing a blog.

…or really anything, for that matter.

BUT tomorrow is Friday, and I am taking this weekend to relax.

To kick things off, I will be hitting up my favorite spot, Rumor in Philadelphia, to see Sander Van Doorn perform for the club’s one year anniversary! (Congratulations!!!)

And Saturday I will be enjoying the grand opening of a new venue in the city called Sound Garden Hall.

Obviously EDM is my therapy right now.

If you want any additional information on either of these places or events, let me know. They are open to any who get tickets, and music truly has saved my life.

Maybe see some of you there 🙂

Happy Thursday!

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4 thoughts on “Updates and Music Therapy

  1. Oh wow, it seems like you have quite a bit going on in your life right now! I’m sorry your stressed out. Don’t let the stress get to you and let your ED sneak in, that would be the worse thing for the anxiety/stress. I’m sure you know this, making sure to just instill it:)
    I hope you and Ryan have a great, relaxing getaway and can really process your thoughts on this situation. Take as much time as you need off from blogging! xox

  2. Hang in there CJ. You’re in a tough spot, but you can get through it. And if it makes you feel any better (and yet another weird ‘coincidence’ about the similarity of our lives), one of my siblings is pregnant too right now, which will ultimately have a huge impact on my life as well, as she’s going to be needing LOTS of help and the baby will almost certainly be under the same roof as me while she finishes up her graduate education.

    Just enjoy the ‘simple’ ‘little’ things that perk you up- those are the things that really count when the going gets rough I found. Have fun this weekend, don’t worry about it, we’re all here for you 🙂

    Jess

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