Last week I shared an article via Facebook that got some interesting feedback.
A lot of people e-mailed, commented, “liked” and told me how much this particular story helped them stay motivated for recovery.
*If you want to read the actual article, the link is listed below. I will, however, warn you that the content is somewhat scary and should be read with caution.
When I say scary, I mean it is REAL, and talks about a young woman dying from her eating disorder, even though she looked and weighed what our charts consider “normal,” or “healthy.”
I won’t get started on the topic of all the issues with the American medical system or insurance, but our society has a bit of a problem, because we believe if someone is not emaciated-ly skinny then they couldn’t possibly have an eating disorder.
I cannot express enough how WRONG this belief is.
In fact, the majority of people I know who have the biggest problems, are not under weight at all.
And often, those are the people who get denied treatment because they do not fit the criteria suggested by medical professionals for admission to recovery facilities.
i.e. insurance won’t cover any of the costs and it is EXPENSIVE.
I was fortunate to have a fabulous provider that covered some of the bills, but they still added up year after year…
So now that you get the basic gist of the Psychology Today piece, you might understand why I didn’t know how to take the comments made by my peers…
“This article helped me stay on track….thank you so much for posting this, it’s exactly what I needed to read today…”
My first reaction was, “are these people crazy, this article is SO sad!…I probably shouldn’t have publicized this…anyone who takes the time to read it is going to think I am SO morbid and lacking all hope!”
But then it dawned on me. The young woman’s story is an eye-opener!
Continuing with the tradition of last week, for me, today is “try something new Tuesday,” and if I am being honest my challenges and progress are nothing close to what they should be considering I have been “getting healthy” for years.
Sure I am putting on a pound of two, here or there, but there is no consistency in my plan.
I see the roll starting to form along my waistline and have an anxiety attack, which translates to, I might still be eating more calorically, but it is through a safer variety of food, or because I can “justify” the larger portions through some extra intensity on the treadmill.
This mind-set and my efforts need to change.
The above documentation proves that even though I cannot see the damage I may have done to myself in the past few years, that doesn’t mean it is not there. And sometimes is the things that are invisible to the eye, that are the most detrimental.
It has always been easy for me to deny, and minimize my problem because I say I have no real evidence…my labs are normal, my vitals check out…but perhaps I need to accept the severity of my past and make way better decisions regardless of how difficult they may be.
No one will care about that pudge around my middle if I am no longer breathing.
Since I am writing this Monday night, I don’t exactly know what my challenge will be for today, but I promise I will give an update asap.
Perhaps that will help give me some accountability…
Are you facing a fear today??
Do you find things like this “motivating” or just too sad?