I am having a hard time with a few things outside my recovery, that I have definitely let impact my progress in the past.
They are stressors every adult has, I just tend to deal with them very poorly, and let things that bother me justify my destructive behaviors.
“Boo hoo, I hate this part of my life…I am not happy with how this is going…etc.”
You get the picture.
So I was venting to my mom about my current woe; definitely catastrophizing the situation to the max, and she stopped me mid sentence and said, “CJ, you create a lot of your own misery.”
Oh my gosh she is right.
I sounded really whiny and terrible and I was appalled at my complaints, because lately I have been WAY more negative than necessary, and that really isn’t part of my character.
I was pretty darn embarassed with myself after I thought about it because I don’t like being so pessimistic. It makes me feel ungrateful, unappreciative and needy, considering my life is wonderfully blessed in so many ways.
Not to mention it takes a whole heck of a lot more effort to be negative than if I could just adopt the attitude, “CJ, things aren’t exactly the way you want them at the current moment, but you have the power to make a change for the better. ”
It is a proven fact that if you start the morning with a positive outlook, the tone of the day will be much more productive…and happy.
How many times have you gone into work thinking, “Wow these next 8 hours are going to take forever…this week is going so slowly….”
And then those things become your reality, right?!
Well I am approaching today and this week differently, because it has been FAR FAR too long since I have woken up and actually smelled the roses.
Remember my mantra of PTG?!
As great of a habit as that was, it has sadly been put to the wayside in my last few weeks of being a grump.
But like I said, I have the power to make a change and right now I am going to share with all of you that I am proud of the fact that I have been listening to my body and been much better at ignoring the detrimental comments of others.
I am extremely thankful for the new friends and faces that have come into my life and made such a wonderful impact.
And I am GOING TO (I changed Goal to GOING TO so I JUST DO IT 😉 ) continue to step out of my comfort zone in ALL avenues of my life; including with fear foods, emotional expression, and asking for what I need.
What is your PTG this Monday? If you take three seconds to think about it, your day/week might just get off on the right foot 🙂