Did anyone else grow up loving the show Boy Meets World?
I certainly did. I came home every day with a lineup of tv I couldn’t wait to see….Saved By the Bell, Full House, Boy Meets World; all those sappy family programs where everything was peachy, or at least resolved by 23 minutes into the episode.
Yesterday my sister and I sat down and actually watched Boy Meets World for the first time in YEARS (who even knew it was on anymore?!) and all the main characters were at the same college together, having a fabulous time in the student lounge and in walks Mr. Feeny…the same guy who was their middle school teacher, high school principal and now their DEAN.
How is this possible?! Their entire lives were basically the same for the many seasons of the show.
I found myself a little jealous, because I noticed, this is exactly what I tried to do.
I left high school and went to a college literally five minute from my house, lived at home for two out of the four years, moved to a town home within a three minute drive of all my family and obviously had a melt down because that was too far, moved back home even though my husband still pays the other mortgage, and now am having wicked anxiety because I am changing addresses again, to a place without my mom and sister.
I realize this sounds ridiculous.
I am not 15.
I am married and an adult person who should totally be able to function on her own.
But I am petrified.
I am scared to death that I will lose my stability (aka my core unit family) because I will be too far away.
I’m not blaming TV or the shows I enjoyed as a little kid. I actually liked seeing some of the old episodes again, but my gosh I did have some wishful thinking that my existence could mimic the ones written in a script.
Unfortunately, reality is not written, and I need to learn to cope with the curveballs life likes to throw.
What this means for me is to talk openly, express my feelings regardless of the fear I have of being rejected, cry when the urge is there, write, watch the cheesy movies and read the pointless books I used to deem as a waste of time, and really just de-stress in healthy, positive ways.
Last week I was beating myself up because I got my nails done; an activity I LOVE because it makes me feel good, my friend actually does them so I find it to be socially exciting, and for holiday parties it was so fun having a French manicure and sparkly snowflake on my fingers, but I beat myself up for days and days and days because I spent unnecessary money.
Stop doing that, CJ.
Not everything in life is predictable.
Things change and stress WILL happen.
Everyone deserves to have a healthy way to deal with that, and I am still experimenting to find mine, since a few hours on the treadmill is just not a good idea.
The point is, life, holidays, work, pretty much anything can cause anxiety. It is up to us to determine how to handle these things without completely breaking down.
Never stop expressing, never stop taking time for yourself, and please remember that even though today may be a struggle, tomorrow is always a new day.
Yes, I am talking to myself, but hopefully you can benefit too 🙂
Have a terrific tuesday.
I promise posts will not always be as boring as of late….new year, improved ME 🙂