When I was at Princeton Inpatient Hospital we did something I really enjoyed at the end of every day. We had snack, of course, and a community meeting, but the thing I particularly liked was the “PTG,” stating what we were proud of for that day, thankful for, and whether or not we accomplished a goal we had set for ourselves. I had a little bit of guilt after my breakfast this morning because I was abnormally ravenous and so I thought it might be nice to distract myself by thinking of something more positive rather than the amount of food I had just consumed. So I hopped on the computer, twittered, face booked, checked my e-mail, you know the normal routine and then I saw a message from one of my old friends at Princeton. It was a very nice message which helped, but it also made me think of PTG and how appropriate I thought the exercise would be for a morning like this!
I was just having a conversation with my husband the other night about being thankful for the blogging community. I have tried to be very open, especially the last few weeks, about my personal experiences and struggles for selfish reasons (because journaling does help) and in an attempt to help others who might be feeling the same things I have in the past, or even right now. So I wanted to start my Tuesday with a PTG.
hat am I proud of? I am happy to say I am proud of a few things in my life right now. I am proud that I have invested myself by trying to expand my blog and truly enjoying all that this brings; “meeting” new people, allowing myself to be creative, etc. I am proud of listening to my body and giving it what it wants, even if it is more than my meal plan describes. I am proud of helping my sister through a very difficult situation (which I am not ready to talk about on here yet, but you will probably be hearing about it soon…I will actually need some advice!). And overall, I am just proud of the positive changes I have made in my life to push further along into the recovery process.
I mentioned this when I talked about my conversation with Ryan the other night, but honestly I am extremely thankful for the blogging world. If you read my very first, second and third entries you would see that I did not start this blog and continue it right away. It took me three atempts to actually stick with the process and have the confidence to write about me. I did not think anyone would want to read my story, or listen to my struggles with exercise, food and self-esteem but instead felt people would take one look at my lack of computer and web-design skills and move onto the next site. And if you, as a reader, do that, that is fine…that is why there are a bunch of blogs out there, so you can pick which you most relate to! But from the people who do comment, or the e-mails I get, it feels wonderful to have others to connect with. I honestly try to answer every person that responds to my posts because it means that world to me that you read. And not only that you read but that you UNDERSTAND and can relate to the content I write. I only hope that my situations can help someone else have an easier time in their journeys toward balanced living because I know many of the people who have opened up to me in the past were very influential in the positives I have in my process today. So thank you guys for reading. It makes my days to hear from you, and if there is anything you need, or would like to hear about, please let me know J
As far as goals, well I have a lot of goals, but today specifically I need to pack for HLS, which may seem easy but I am a planner who needs to try everything on, ensure I have a few extra outfits just in case the main ones do not feel right, etc. It sound kind of silly but hey, I would rather feel good and confident with my choices than get there and not be prepared…This goes hand in hand with my next ambition of the day, to tell myself one positive thing (at least!) every hour. I am getting really nervous for the Summit because the other attendees are people I really admire and look up to. Despite the fact that I have only been participating, commenting, and writing my own blog for a few months, I have been a reader for years. I got a lot of recipes, work out tips, hope and inspiration from many of the females who are going to be in Philadelphia in just a few days. This makes me nervous! Its like the entry I wrote the other day about The Help…as much as I hate to admit I want to be accepted, I really do! I am not the picture of a balanced lifestyle (yet ;-)) but more like a work in progress that struggles every day to stay on the right path and I will be surrounded by others who are exactly where I want to be; healthy, beautiful, and strong! Am I doing well? I think so, but obviously there is a long way to go. I am thrilled for the opportunity to spend the weekend among my peers, but I can’t help but want to be like that too. I am no role model, but hopefully some day I can be, and this weekend I hope to learn ways I can help influence and encourage people in a positive way through words, just like others have done for me. So today I have my work cut out because I don’t always do well at giving myself praise, feeling self-conscious and conceited, but kindness and self-love are neither of those things. They are merely a reminder that I am a good person and am worth it. I hope you can do the same J
What is your Tuesday PTG?